We had to be at the hospital early. It was still dark out when we arrived.

The nurse handed me a gown. I changed and got into the uncomfortable bed. This is not where I wanted to spend the next few nights. The nurse comes back into the room, telling me she needs to go over some questions with me. Every time she leaves the room, I begin uncontrollably sobbing. I was so scared to have another c-section. Especially the way the first one went. Once the nurse walked back in, I’d stop. Pretend I wasn’t scared. Everything would be fine. Then again as soon as she left I was sobbing again. Not sleeping the night before had a lot to do with how I was feeling.

It felt like time was going so slow. When would I get to meet my baby girl?

Finally they rolled me back to the operating room. The mood in the room was much different then it was when I was in there for Morgan’s c-section. Every one was cheerful, and so kind. The anesthesiologist told me to let him know if I started feeling dizzy, and he’d make it better for me. I told them how I could feel most everything with my previous c-section. They do this thing where they poke your skin to see if you can feel it to ensure you are properly numbed. I couldn’t feel a thing, but I was still hesitant. The anesthesiologist asked how I was feeling. I said I was pretty good. I just wanted to meet my baby. He replied by telling me that they had already begun.

Really? They had already started cutting me open?

They let Dan come in the O.R. by me. I was so happy to see his face. He sure does look good in scrubs! Just a few seconds later I heard the best sound in the world.

Mabel’s sweet cry!

Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face. They handed Mabel over to Dan and for the first time ever I saw my beautiful daughter. The first thing I noticed was how big she was! 9lbs  and 21 inches. I was overjoyed, and I could tell Dan was too. He has a soft spot for little babies. All of those fears, and what ifs were gone. The moment I heard her cry I knew everything was going to be okay. I couldn’t wait  to get back to my room and hold her.

Before I knew it I was done in the operating room, and they were wheeling me back to my room where Dan and Mabel were waiting for me. We spent the next few hours, just us three. By about 11 a.m. I was ready for Morgan to meet her new sister. Dan went home and picked her up where my mom was staying with her. She slept in so she hardly even realized we weren’t home. I was so excited to see my big girl. It was love at first sight, Morgan loved her sister.

We were now a family of 4 and life was perfect!